Uhhh...

Every time I log into Blogger, it says I have one more post. Like, for instance, one day it says 91, then a few days later it says 94. But...I haven't posted anything. I think Blogger is conspiring against me. One word. Rude.

Oh No...

I'm becoming one of those people. You know, the ones who go on the Internet and spill their emotional innards all over the place for countless people to discover? Not that there's anything wrong with that at all. Actually, I think if you're comfortable enough with whatever you're going through to put it out there for everyone to read, then it's a pretty darn good idea.
But, you see, I'm not one to spread my problems. There are a select few on this earth who actually know what goes on inside my head and heart. I like to keep it all to myself most of the time, lest the information falls into the wrong hands.
However, I've been finding myself coming to this blog very frequently lately, poised to post all about my emotions and feelings...blech.
I'm really not a heartless monster. I'm just reserved.
So expect an onslaught of completely pointless, random, emotionless posts that will make you wonder why you are still reading this blog.
You've been warned ;)

Hmm...

So, I've realized...I do my best writing late at night. I don't really know why this is...but it seems like my thoughts come together much better when the sky is dark and my house is quiet.
Anyway...as you can tell, I've kind of been forgetting to post those ten things that make me smile each week. So I figured I should post something. And this probably won't be ten things that make me smile. Heck, it might not even be ten things. Basically just a list of thoughts that are kicking around in my head?
Yeah, okay. Here we go...

1) My new favorite song lyrics ever? "We go together like sugar and sweet tea" & "Shout it loudly...yeah, we from the country!" (Not really. But this is what I'm listening to right now) 

2) I get to see one of my best friends tomorrow! It's been...almost three months since we actually hung out. I'm pumped :)

3) All the thoughts that were in my head three minutes ago seem to have escaped me...

4) Oh, I remember one. I kind of dislike people who are full of themselves. Like...people who are just so darn impressed with themselves. I can understand accomplishing something and being proud of yourself and feeling accomplished, but come on now. You can only ride that wave so far before you go crashing right into the Sea of Ego.

5) I'm set to finish math on June 14th, the same day as public schools let out. And if I don't accomplish this. Well, we won't go there ;)

6) I think that everyone should read The Hunger Games series this summer. Because I need more people to talk to about them.

7) Hmm...I'm going to see Pirates 4 tomorrow. Two thoughts on this: it's probably not going to be anywhere near as good as the three before it andddd, I'm going to be melancholy about it because it will remind me of my brother.

8) Speaking of my brother, I've had a lot of people ask me lately, "So, you just have two sisters, right?" I do have a brother. But he's in the Marines (in school), and currently MIA in my life. Which is ridiculous, I mean, who could go an extended amount of time without talking to yours truly? :p

9) Whoo, the ":p" face reminded me...I've been having super great (yet, kind of weird?) conversations with a super great friend. They pretty much make my day :)

10) Okay, this is the tenth thing and I'm going to make it the last because I'm super tired.
I got a book in the mail yesterday by one of my favorite authors. It was basically a novella, just a small addition story to a series. But the crazy thing was that the entire message and story and everything related really closely to certain...relational circumstances that I've been in? I guess that's how you could word it. You see, I tend to get myself in trouble because I'm sometimes too quick to speak. About a lot of things. Including, er, crushes. It pains me to say that word. Or, type it, whatever. I hate it so much that I wish it would just be eliminated from the English language. It really doesn't even make sense, like, "I have a crush on you." Whaaaat? 
Okay, sorry, off topic there.
Anyways, yeah. I speak too hastily. Sometimes. And in this book, so did the girl. And the guy. And out of all 96 pages of text, there were about five sentences that stood out to me. And they were:
"Do you think we can go back to being whatever we were before I told you I had a crush on you?" 
"No, I don't think we can. I think we just go on from here. I'm content to let everything be what it was and what it is and not try to push it any further."
I just...I was amazed at how much that related to me. Sometimes I really do believe that God sends little messages to me in little ways when I need them most. And that dialogue doesn't even only apply to crushes people who "like like" each other. It applies to friends and family and anyone that you talk to and care about...there will always come a time in every relationship where you hit a crossroads. And you can either decide to desert the relationship or just keep going, but not push for anything more. And I think that this little, tiny piece of wisdom is something I need in all areas of my life. I've had so many relationships (not romantic relationships...) that have just gone South. And I've finally realized that I don't need to try to retrieve all of the pieces. And I don't need to try to walk away from the person. I just need to keep living my life and trust that in the end, God's will will be done. And if it's not in God's will for that person to be in my life, then they will drift out of my life without me forcing them out. And if they are supposed to be in my life, then things will eventually work out.
So that's my new...goal, I guess. To not try so hard. To just take things as they come and trust God. Because otherwise, I will fail miserably every time.

Done, done, done!

Today...was the last day of school! Whooooo!
At first when I was thinking about this, I wasn't planning on blogging about it, or at least not like a "reflection" of my year. But I kind of feel like it's necessary. And it will probably be long and boring and uninteresting, but that's how this thing usually goes, right?

Changed my mind. I'm not going to do that. Just know: This year has been pretty awesome at some points, but I'm still glad it's over! :)

No Title Today!

I'm going to do something I never do and vent on this blog.
So, I was doing what I do and wasting away my existence spending my leisure time browsing the internet, when I came across a review of the concert I went to a few weeks ago (different show, though same concert), on a website called Jesus Freak Hideout.
I thought that the review would be full of great things because the website seemed to really promote Family Force 5. But, boy, was I wrong. Here is a list of things that made me want to knock down doors.
1) Family Force 5 is known to have stage names. Fans know them by their stage names, and they even call each other by these names. Mr. Debiase, who, for this blog will be called Mr. DebiaseD, clearly never took any kind of English class, and lacks knowledge of consistency. He referenced one of the members by their stage name, then referenced another by their real name...in the same sentence.
2) Mr. DebiaseD is obviously an old man. He decided that the super, awesome, high energy, band, Since Forever, was "a bit too typical sytlistically to leave much of an impression". Note that "sytlistsically" isn't even a real word. Like I said, clearly he never stepped foot in an English class. 
3) Mr. DebiaseD is obviously an insensitive rudeling (I know this isn't a word, but sometimes you just need a word to describe such imbeciles!) for he dared to rag on  Stereo Skyline, when they were two members short. This is like making fun of a kid using crutches! I'm going to have to go even deeper into this: 
          A) He boldly had the audacity to assume that Stereo Skyline had lost two members, as if they had broken up, when in reality two of the members had to fly home for an emergency. Where's your fact checker, Mr. DebiaseD? 
          B) Okay. Two members. A singer with a guitar, and a drummer. It's gonna be hard to impress a crowd who's there for a band like Family Force 5. But they did super well, at least at the concert I went to. But what did Mr. DebiaseD think? "It was a valiant attempt on their part to keep going despite the personnel losses, but the set was too bland for an otherwise high energy show. Their set went on a bit too long..." Why don't you try to go up there and entertain a crowd, Mr. DebiaseD? 
4) I feel the need to simply repeat my previous claim that Mr. DebiaseD is obviously an insensitive rudeling. He continued in his review to write about Swimming With Dolphins. Firstly, he started off on the wrong foot by saying that SWD originally consisted of Austin Tofte and Adam Young, but Adam Young left after Owl City picked up speed. However, this is completely false as Austin Tofte left Owl City to focus on SWD. 
Now, are you ready for the big kicker? Mr. DebiaseD so brazenly said of SWD, "...Their songs weren't as memorable or catchy as Young's project."
Need I even point out the rudeness in this statement? Good, I didn't think so. 
And lastly, Mr. DebiaseD once again did not consult his fact checker when he stated that "Sleep to Dream" was one of SWD's old songs, when, in actuality, it is their newest single. 
And for the main event...
Let me start out by saying that minutes before the show, three of the brothers in Family Force 5 were informed that their dog of eleven years had died. Do you have a pet? Do you love it? Do you hug it and kiss it and call it George? Think about it passing away. Think about having to go be happy and play a show for hundreds of people. And on top of that, think about being sick. 
It'd be kind of hard, don'tcha think? Clearly, Mr. DebiaseD doesn't share that sentiment. 
In the paragraph and half that he wrote about Family Force 5, he repeatedly insisted that they were having an "off" night, not bringing their best, and that he altogether hated the theme of the tour.


So, I will end this by simply saying that Mr. DebasieD should be happy that he's safe and secure over there in that Jesus Freak Hideout.

Some Say...

So, some people say that Taylor Swift steals their diaries to write song lyrics. I'm pretty sure that Charlieissocoollike on Youtube has stolen my diary to find content to make his videos.



P.S. 1,005 blog views? Yes, please :)

The CD That I Risked My Life For...Twice

Woo. Sorry I haven't had any type of coherent post in a while. The past week and a half has been so crazy it's kind of ridiculous. And it all kind of came to a head yesterday and yesterday was just...wretched. It was horrible. And you know what made it even more horrible?
I'ma tell ya! (Just look at that grammar...it's golden.)
Soooo if you've been reading my blog, then you know all about the plans I had to buy Swimming with Dolphin's CD the day it came out. And man, I was pumped. I was gonna go get the CD and listen to it all day while I did homework, and it was going to just make my entire day that much better.
Or not.
I went to Best Buy...they didn't have it.
I went to Target...they didn't have it.
Walmart didn't have it either.
So I came home, all forlorn and such, and went online. The band had posted that you could get the album on iTunes (which I refuse(d) to do because I have a thing about buying full CD's on there) or at FYE.
So I called FYE, the one in the mall closest to my house, and asked if they had in the new Swimming with Dolphins CD. The guy then says, "Swimming with what?" To which I answer, "Uh...dolphins?" And after which he replied, "Yes, actually, I just finished putting them all out." (remember the all part...it's important for later).
So I said thanks, etc. etc. And I called my sister to ask if she could take me after she got off. She said yes, that she would be home at 8:30.
Now Marley Station Mall....is a very....abandoned mall. Not many people go there, and the people who do go there are...creepy. Most of them, at least. So here I go, waltzing into Marley Station at 8:45, when it's dark, the mall's about to close so there's even less people around, and security guards are scarce. I knew I was taking my own life into my hands, I really did. But this CD was just so worth it.
I made it to FYE unscathed, and looked for the CD but couldn't find it, so I finally broke down and asked. And do you want to know what the woman said?
"Oh...we only ordered one copy and it just sold."
What the heck kind of store orders one copy of a CD???? 
And what happened to "I just finished putting them all out "?
I was mad, to say the least. Really, super, duper mad.
And I had to navigate my way out of the super creepy, dark, deserted, mall by myself, CD-less.
Then we decided to go to the FYE in Arundel Mills.
Arundel Mills isn't as bad as Marley Station...but at 10 pm....it's pretty bad.
So here I go, risking my life again, going into another FYE, and guess what?
"Nope, sorry, we don't have that one."
I wanted to punch a wall.
So I ended up not getting it. At all. I went to four different stores and nobody had it.
And I had to order it online, from Amazon.
And Amazon has free shipping on orders over $25, so I wasn't about to spend twelve dollars on a CD and six dollars on shipping when I could just spend a few extra dollars and get free shipping.
Sooooooooooooo.
Not only did I not get the CD yesterday, but I also spent fifteen dollars more than I expected to and am now completely broke.
Let's just say....it better be worth it.

Oh & P.S....exactly one week of school left. Yessss.