Hmm...

So, I've realized...I do my best writing late at night. I don't really know why this is...but it seems like my thoughts come together much better when the sky is dark and my house is quiet.
Anyway...as you can tell, I've kind of been forgetting to post those ten things that make me smile each week. So I figured I should post something. And this probably won't be ten things that make me smile. Heck, it might not even be ten things. Basically just a list of thoughts that are kicking around in my head?
Yeah, okay. Here we go...

1) My new favorite song lyrics ever? "We go together like sugar and sweet tea" & "Shout it loudly...yeah, we from the country!" (Not really. But this is what I'm listening to right now) 

2) I get to see one of my best friends tomorrow! It's been...almost three months since we actually hung out. I'm pumped :)

3) All the thoughts that were in my head three minutes ago seem to have escaped me...

4) Oh, I remember one. I kind of dislike people who are full of themselves. Like...people who are just so darn impressed with themselves. I can understand accomplishing something and being proud of yourself and feeling accomplished, but come on now. You can only ride that wave so far before you go crashing right into the Sea of Ego.

5) I'm set to finish math on June 14th, the same day as public schools let out. And if I don't accomplish this. Well, we won't go there ;)

6) I think that everyone should read The Hunger Games series this summer. Because I need more people to talk to about them.

7) Hmm...I'm going to see Pirates 4 tomorrow. Two thoughts on this: it's probably not going to be anywhere near as good as the three before it andddd, I'm going to be melancholy about it because it will remind me of my brother.

8) Speaking of my brother, I've had a lot of people ask me lately, "So, you just have two sisters, right?" I do have a brother. But he's in the Marines (in school), and currently MIA in my life. Which is ridiculous, I mean, who could go an extended amount of time without talking to yours truly? :p

9) Whoo, the ":p" face reminded me...I've been having super great (yet, kind of weird?) conversations with a super great friend. They pretty much make my day :)

10) Okay, this is the tenth thing and I'm going to make it the last because I'm super tired.
I got a book in the mail yesterday by one of my favorite authors. It was basically a novella, just a small addition story to a series. But the crazy thing was that the entire message and story and everything related really closely to certain...relational circumstances that I've been in? I guess that's how you could word it. You see, I tend to get myself in trouble because I'm sometimes too quick to speak. About a lot of things. Including, er, crushes. It pains me to say that word. Or, type it, whatever. I hate it so much that I wish it would just be eliminated from the English language. It really doesn't even make sense, like, "I have a crush on you." Whaaaat? 
Okay, sorry, off topic there.
Anyways, yeah. I speak too hastily. Sometimes. And in this book, so did the girl. And the guy. And out of all 96 pages of text, there were about five sentences that stood out to me. And they were:
"Do you think we can go back to being whatever we were before I told you I had a crush on you?" 
"No, I don't think we can. I think we just go on from here. I'm content to let everything be what it was and what it is and not try to push it any further."
I just...I was amazed at how much that related to me. Sometimes I really do believe that God sends little messages to me in little ways when I need them most. And that dialogue doesn't even only apply to crushes people who "like like" each other. It applies to friends and family and anyone that you talk to and care about...there will always come a time in every relationship where you hit a crossroads. And you can either decide to desert the relationship or just keep going, but not push for anything more. And I think that this little, tiny piece of wisdom is something I need in all areas of my life. I've had so many relationships (not romantic relationships...) that have just gone South. And I've finally realized that I don't need to try to retrieve all of the pieces. And I don't need to try to walk away from the person. I just need to keep living my life and trust that in the end, God's will will be done. And if it's not in God's will for that person to be in my life, then they will drift out of my life without me forcing them out. And if they are supposed to be in my life, then things will eventually work out.
So that's my new...goal, I guess. To not try so hard. To just take things as they come and trust God. Because otherwise, I will fail miserably every time.